On Forgiveness

Had a lot on my mind and couldn't go our for a run due to an impeneding thunderstorm and I hadn't written in a while so I thought I'd sit down and see what happened. This is something I wrote and edited a little, but I kinda like it as is, raw and unpolished. The photos were taken by my H last time we were together (Thanksgiving I believe?). Let me know what'cha think! I want your honest opinions because the only way to get better is to learn. Enjoy!

On Forgiveness
Forgiveness is tough. Messy.
It goes against the grain of human nature.
To deny that primal need for revenge.
To not seek retribution,
Or hold a silent grudge.
To set aside the oft considered right of justice.

To forgive does not mean to forget.
Nothing can erase the offense from memory.
It will always be there,
Haunting my mind.
Plaguing my dreams.
But it does not control my life.


To forgive is not easy.
It takes time. Work.
It often brings pain before relief.
It is not a solitary act,
But an ongoing process,
A daily choice.

To forgive is liberating.
It frees my heart from strangling anger,
And piercing hate.
It loosens the bonds of animosity,
Restores peace,
And quiets my soul.

To forgive is necessary.
To let go, essential.
I am no righteous judge,
And justice is not mine to seek.
Instead I choose forgiveness.
And with forgiveness comes life.

CORE Classes

First, the obligatory apology. So sorry I haven't posted or really even commented in over a month and a half. My computer gave out on me during finals week last semester and I wasn't able to replace it until the first week of this semester. This forced absence, as well as some other stuff going on has just got me out of sync with the blogosphere. But I am back! And I will do better about writing...maybe?

So here I sit in my life science class...the one class I lack for graduation. All I need to do to graduate is pass this one class. And my motivation for actually trying in this class is completely gone. I wonder when in my future I'll actually need to know that a chloroplast is what makes a plant green, and converts sunlight into glucose. I just don't foresee needing that in my chosen career path. I see the need for CORE classes, but sometimes the professor can take them a little to seriously. We actually had a formal debate in class yesterday over genetically modified foods. All we really learned was that there is little actual evidence for both sides. I wish these professors would realize we really don't care about that subject and not give us all the busy-work.

On another note, since I'm not listening to the prof anyway, I had another triad of Murphy's Law the last week and a half. Water Heater broke, Credit Card got stolen (thus my bank account was put on hold), and now my car has died. The first two were resolved relatively painlessly, but it looks like I'll be walking everywhere for awhile. Not a big deal since I really need to lose some weight and exercise, but it is a little bit of a pain. It's going to be awhile before I can get a new vehicle, but at least the weather has been great and I'll probably be able to hitch rides to the grocery store with the adopted fam.

OH! I think I've found a time to write on Monday, Wednesdays, and Fridays! Maybe Life Science isn't very exciting, but it can provide an hour to get some writing done :)